Lord, Put My Life Back Together

Grief has a way of dismantling everything you thought was stable.

After my mother passed, life no longer felt familiar. My body carried the weight of loss — heaviness in my chest, irregular heartbeats, breath that felt shallow, nights without sleep. My heart felt fractured in ways I didn’t know were possible.

Grief doesn’t just break your heart.

It breaks your rhythm.

Your sense of safety.

Your understanding of how life is supposed to work.

I kept wondering if something was wrong with me. But the truth is, something had gone wrong — I had lost someone irreplaceable.

In the middle of that brokenness, I learned something sacred: God does not rush grief, and He does not abandon the grieving.

Scripture says, “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” (Psalm 34:18)

Close — not distant. Present — not silent.

The Lord doesn’t snap His fingers and make the pain disappear. Instead, He kneels beside us in the wreckage. He gathers the pieces we’re too exhausted to pick up ourselves. Piece by piece, breath by breath, day by day, He begins the work of restoration.

Some days, putting life back together looks like strength.

Other days, it looks like tears.

Both are holy.

Grief taught me that healing isn’t about returning to who you were before the loss. It’s about becoming someone new — someone deeper, more tender, more dependent on God. The life He restores doesn’t erase the pain; it carries meaning through it.

Jesus Himself wept at the tomb of Lazarus. He knew resurrection was coming — and still, He wept. That tells me something powerful: tears are not a lack of faith. They are an expression of love.

If you are grieving today, hear this:

You are not broken beyond repair.

You are not weak because you hurt.

You are not forgotten.

The same Lord who formed your heart knows how to heal it. The same God who allowed the loss is the God who promises to redeem it. He will put your life back together — not exactly the same, but held together by His grace.

And until that restoration feels complete, He will walk with you through every fractured moment.